Faith… “Complete trust in or confidence in someone or something”
Faith… “Trusting in something you cannot explicitly prove”
Faith… “Substance of things hoped for and the evidence that things exist that are not yet perceived”
These are just a few definitions of the word faith that I found online. To me, faith is trusting in the unknown even when all hope has been lost.
When something happens in your life that completely rocks your world and turns it upside down how is it possible to have faith?
A loss of a relationship can shatter your trust, a loss of a job can destroy your confidence, a loss of a loved one can break your heart, loss of health can deteriorate any hope.
Any type of loss in life will effect one’s faith. Faith in Christ, faith in love and faith in life itself.
For me, I ultimately knew God was in control of my situation when my husband died, as horrible as it was, yet my world was shattered and my heart broken. I definitely questioned my faith in Christ and was pretty angry at God for letting such tragedy happen to our family, yet I always had faith that God would take care of us.
It was my faith in love and life that I lost when I lost my husband. I felt as if my future had been taken from me.
Getting your faith back after any type of loss takes effort. A conscious effort and a choice to search deep and rediscover that trust, hope and confidence that was once there.
But it’s scary. It’s scary because something you once had was taken away, so it’s hard to ever imagine that life can be as great as it once was when that loss wasn’t gone.
It was scary when I went on my first date with David because the faith in love I once had was gone. It was scary when we got more serious and made the decision to get married and blend our families because the faith I once had in my future was gone.
My faith in Christ never left.
That faith is the only thing that has gotten me to the place I am today. Where the shattered pieces of love and life have been put back together.
A place where I can share that even in my darkest days, living out my worst nightmare, experiencing my own deepest hell on earth I was able to find my faith again.
Meet my newest found Faith. This is David’s and my baby girl and her middle name will be Faith. She is due to arrive toward the end of December. She is our miracle and a huge part of our testimony that God has a perfect plan for our lives even when we lose all hope.
No matter what your loss may be… a relationship, employment, health, death… just know that when all faith and hope feels lost in the moment of your heartbreak, I promise it is still there. You just have to be brave and make the choice to find it and believe in it.
